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Chapter 03: Saddened by Happiness

No one was surprised by her behavior, they all knew about her engagement to Yahara and his disappearance by this time. Minako had been pleasantly surprised by everyone's reactions to the news, and they had all been kind enough to refrain from mention it in her hearing. She was grateful that they all were being very understanding in that matter, even Haruka. The two of them had been feuding for awhile, but at some point they had reached a truce...

Minako rubbed at her eyes, remembering again how little she had slept lately. She had spent nearly a month in bed, but sleep evaded her despite that... The bed was used merely as a place to lay prone and think about what she had lost... The sheets had held his scent for some time, but that had faded. That was really the only reason she had decided to rise up and walk once more. She caught sight of her reflection in the mirror and thought how bitterly ironic it was that she is such an ugly mess inside and out, but still supposedly the "Goddess of Love and Beauty."

Minako flinched as she heard Heion squeal again followed by distinct sound of the child's footsteps running in a random direction. She sighed again and shook her head muttering, "The kid certainly has enough energy for all her little adventures and always has some left over... Unbelievable..."

Minako's face darkened some as she was reminded of Chenoa and Kodia and she reflected on all the happy couples she knew or had known... Usagi and Mamoru, Ami and Greg, Makoto and Motoki, Rei and Yuuichiro (the two did not even speak now, but there had been a time when they were happy... Which is why Minako had never had the heart to tell Rei she knew this love affair would end in sorrow), Haruka and Michiru... She was wretchedly jealous of them all, and she knew it. She hated feeling that way, but none of her relationships had ever worked out. They'd all ended with her rejecting his proposal or the two fighting, sometime violently. And then, when she was alone again, her jealousy and insecurity would flare up, and she'd eventually run to the first man who seemed interested, starting the whole process over again.

Minako sighed, realizing that that jealousy and insecurity shouldn't be there then. She was engaged to Yahara then, and happily so. The only thing she had to fret over was that he was gone... but she did wish with all her heart for him to be there at that very moment. When they were together again, the jealousy would be gone forever and never have cause to return. How can one be jealous of something that they possess?

Yet she did feel jealous... Because at the moment, almost everyone else had something she did not.

Minako did her best to conceal those feelings... She had grown accustomed to doing so over the years. She had never let it affect the friendships between them, but every night she'd leave bitter tear stains on her pillow. And with Yahara gone she had more cause to weep every night... And every day considering she had not even so much as left the bed.

Minako finally pushed all those thoughts down, realizing she had been moping quite enough. She'd been a pity trip for what seemed like decades, and she couldn't allow herself to continue with it. At last Minako caught site of her familiar orange communicator. She picked it up and noticed it was still open from when she had tried to make a call. She shuddered slightly at the memory and flipped it shut, her mind not even halfway on what she was doing.

'Because of this stupid thing my time with Yahara was made shorter,' she thought angrily.

Minako narrowed her eyes angrily and growled, "Worthless piece of trash... What's the point of calling for help if the stupid thing always gets knocked out of your hand?" Minako stuck the watch on her wrist, pulling the strap far too tightly in her malevolence towards it. She groaned angrily and fixed it, wishing it gone from her presence.

Minako then sat with her back against the wall, ignoring the tears that welled up in her eyes. She remained like that for some time, hoping no one would see her. After a while she looked up and whispered, "Goddess let something happen soon... I can't stand being useless like this... Maybe if I could do something here besides mope around and cry all day it would help... If for no other reason than to prove that I don't just turn into a bumbling idiot if Yahara's not around... I just... need some kind of distraction..."

Little did Minako know that she would get a major distraction very soon...

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